The Start of My Career

So I've finally found a job! Man I feel so relieved...after months of sending out resumes and checking job boards, I've finally found a job! It was getting a bit depressing for a while, but I can say that it was worth the wait. I didn't want to settle for any old job, I wanted to work in an industry related to my degree. Unfortunately, advertising and marketing is suffering due to the state of the economy making job opportunities scarce and layoffs frequent.

I will be working for an advertising agency called Initiative and my official job title is Digital Assistant Media Planner for the Kia Motors account. Before my internship at Deutsch LA, I had only a limited understanding of the advertising industry, but quickly grew to love every aspect of it. I love that this industry, as well as the department I will be working in, is both analytical and creative. Me, well I'm more of the analytical type, but I can muster up a few great ideas every now and then. The work environment is perfect...casual attire, friendly co-workers, autonomy, company functions, individual recognition, great starting salary, overtime, and benefits, vertical and horizontal movement, equality amongst all employee levels, your own desk that you are encouraged to decorate and display your personality. I love it!!

I have to admit, beneath all the excitement I am utterly terrified, freaked out, and nervous as hell! I've never really worked a formal 9-5 job. I've had a number of part time jobs with varying hours and schedules that could add up to an 8 hour day or a 40 hour week, but I always had an off day somewhere. Now that I have to work 5 days a week straight, I'm a little anxious and nervous about this new experience. I'm sure I'm just over reacting as usual, but I spent more time trying to get the job than preparing for life after obtaining the job.

So my career starts on Monday, August 3, 2009 and I'm looking forward to getting the ball rolling. If things go according to plan, by this time next year, I will have been promoted to Media Planner and working on another account. What I like about advertising, is that it is a fast moving industry and promotions are common and frequent. So I ready to move up the ranks!

Look out world! I'm a woman with a plan and I have goals to achieve!

the present me and my former bff

So there's this girl I used to be best friends with until some incident (seemingly childish now) caused me to stop speaking to her. It has been almost five years since we've spoken, even though she is a friend on myspace. Then one day, she hits me up asking if I want to meet her for lunch so we can catch up...now I'm very skeptical about doing so because once I cut people, I don't bring them back. Anyways, we end up going to red lobster and talking for hours, about the usual, school, boys, and watever else.

Since that day, she's been texting me and asking for advice about some problems she's having in her life. To be honest with you, I kind of regret going to lunch with her. It was cool to see how she was doing but it reminded me of some personality traits that I don't particularly care for in a person. We are opposites in terms of confidence, self-esteem, determination, and strong will. It reminded of how weak a person she is and I'm in that place anymore to carry her and her emotions. Now that we have had some time to grow up and grow apart, I can see things that I was unable to as a child. There was a reason why I was the outspoken one doing all the talking. There was a reason why I had so many more friends but also able to feel content without having them. It's because I am comfortable in my own skin. It's because I don't mind embarrassing myself in front of strangers. It's because I didn't need the approval of others to feel accepted or to feel as if I was somebody.

I've got more than enough confidence to give to another and a very thick skin, but I cannot give someone confidence, I cannot make them believe in themselves, and I cannot make them feel good in their own skin. Honestly, I don't have the time or patience to deal with it either. If this makes me a mean and insensitive person, then so be it. But I don't think being a person's crutch or holding their hand helps them grow either.

Maybe one day she will become a stronger person then maybe we could be friends again, but until then I don't associate with people that I can walk all over or allows others to walk over them.

Ode to Tattoos

they are so addictive...you spend so much time picking out the perfect tattoo because you only want to get one and the right one at that since its permanent (well, not really)...well finally you find the perfect tattoo, get the approval of your friends, and gather enough nerve to make a trip over to the tattoo shop...after all that...you've got ur first and what was intended to be your only tattoo, then a few months pass by and you've got the urge for another one. now we all know getting a tattoo isn't the best feeling in the world, but you're itching for that needle again!

shit that's the story of my life, now i have 4 tattoos and wnt another one in the future, but all of mine are in places that can be covered by clothing with relative ease. watch out now, because in the summer the ink will surely see the light of day!

now tell me you can't relate to this...TATS are ADDICTIVE!!! if you don't believe that, you obviously don't have one!

Boys and Video Games

can someone please explain this extreme love for video games that boys have? im sitting here watching the hubby play Call of Duty online and he is sooo passionate about winning and losing...SHEESH! have you noticed how much time and effort goes into perfecting their "craft"? its hilarious! lowkey, i think guys aren't as dumb as they pretend to be, it takes some serious hand-eye coordination to be good at a first person shooter game and not to mention a plan of attack. i think guys would much rather allow females to do the socially accepted professions and the so called intelligent hobbies, but they are smart in their own right. Why do you think game testers, designers, etc...are mostly dudes? hey they might be nerds and geeks, but let a girl hop on street fighter, madden, or rainbow six (SOMETHING OTHER THAN THAT DAMN WII BOWLING OR EXERCISE) and see how whack they are! oh and that includes me, i suck at those types of games, but you can't see me in wheel of fortune or csi...i am that strategic chick on the stix!

so i finally decided to get one of these...lol

hello bloggers,

i was bored around midnight and decided to get one of these. so now im on the search for some buddies. currently, on the prowl...